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I have recently come across a Showtime show called "United States of Tara." Though I can not relate to having a multi-personality disorder, I do am currently dealing with bi-polar 1. When hearing the lyrics to the opening song to this show a lyric stuck in my mind. "I know we'll be find if we learn to love the ride." There are times when the ride of my disorder can be overwhelming with the constant up and downs, the sleeplessness and the times when I can't sleep, and the times when I have to tell myself I may have this disorder, but it does not define who I am as a person. I have to enjoy the ride, and understand when I am up to embrace my mood. And, when I am down to find things I enjoy to do. When taking the time to step back to see where I am on the ride, and embraced the moment. It is by no means easy, there are times when I don't want to go through these things. I don't want to have to fake a smile around friends and my family because on the inside I am falling apart. But, when you find the right friends they understand and are there for you when you can't smile anymore. I will be find if I learn to love the ride! ( though these are just ramblings hopefully someone understands what I mean.)
May my feet walk steady, though the path grows steep
May my voice be strong, though my body may grow weak.
The Goddess lives inside of me, this is why I know my strength.
You will only understand when you have heard a warrior's cry
We carry burdens while walking with our heads held high.
We know that nothing is impossible, but are you willing to pay the price.
Our feelings run deep, happiness and sadness must both be embraced.
There will be storms and the sun will shine, to dance for both is in our design.
Let the rain wash away your sorrows, and the sun enhance your smile.
Dance Warrior Dance! Sing Warrior Sing! Cry Warrior Cry!
May my voice be strong, though my body may grow weak.
The Goddess lives inside of me, this is why I know my strength.
You will only understand when you have heard a warrior's cry
We carry burdens while walking with our heads held high.
We know that nothing is impossible, but are you willing to pay the price.
Our feelings run deep, happiness and sadness must both be embraced.
There will be storms and the sun will shine, to dance for both is in our design.
Let the rain wash away your sorrows, and the sun enhance your smile.
Dance Warrior Dance! Sing Warrior Sing! Cry Warrior Cry!
Hope I don't bite my tongue off
Dec. 12th, 2011 09:47 amThere are times when we are faced with an opportunity to say nothing at all. For example, your friend says she feels fat in her jeans. Many times I would tell her "Yeah they do look like you could bust out of them." Lately, I have been placed in many positions that earlier in life I would not have been able to keep my mouth shut. I realize that the person stating a problem doesn't want me to tell them the truth, but rather comfort them in an insecurity. It can be very hard not to state the obvious of a bad relationship or a few extra pounds. I had to take the situation and reverse it. How would I feel if a close friend were to point out that I had gained weight, my hair dye was a bit extreme, or that sometimes I can be a real bitch. We all have our insecurities, but to be able to support some one positively through something is so much harder than just stating your first thought. So, yes I will bite my tongue and consider their feelings. I never know when I will feel insecure and just need a little comfort, and not a whole lot of critique.
